21 days of prayer | praying in the new year & traveling through loss

Day 15 of 21 Days of Prayer

| 27 December 2023

Hello again. This morning I want to share some Bible verses that encouraged me today. I’ll chat with you all again soon! 

16But I call to God,

and the Lord will save me.

17  Evening and morning and at noon

I utter my complaint and moan,

and he hears my voice.

18He redeems my soul in safety

from the battle that I wage,

for many are arrayed against me.

19God will give ear and humble them,

he who is enthroned from of old, 

—Psalm 55:16-19

22  Cast your burden on the Lord,

and he will sustain you;

he will never permit

the righteous to be moved. 

—Psalm 55:22

“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the Sun has risen; not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” 

—C.S. Lewis 

A Praise

Today is the first day in what feels like forever that I’ve been well enough to work on editing and dress up. I love to dress up in dresses and with bows or headbands. Dressing, I have found, can be an expression of my mood. Do I feel joyful? Do I feel productive? Am I sad? Am I in pain? My clothing reflects that. 

Today I have felt better. More at peace. More joyful. More productive and able to write. 

I am wearing a light faded yellow jean dress that hangs just above my knees—one I was given as a Christmas gift. A long cream cardigan. Black stretch pants. A yellow braided headband—another gift, this time from my sister. And last but not least, fuzzy pink socks. No, they do not match the rest of my outfit but they are cozy. 

It feels nice to dress up a bit and write again. For that I’m thankful. 

Always There For Me…even in my darkest days 

My grandpa was always there for me. Even in my dark days, he was there. He was the one person, maybe the only person, who could get beyond my boundaries and walls in that time. He would always hug me goodbye and hello. Even when I detested touch, he found a way to bring me out of my shell. Always, we would have our customary “cheeks”. 

He was always there for me. 

Always.

I can’t believe he is gone. 

Sometimes I forget. I think, well I need to email him and ask a question. Someone needs to invite him to Christmas or dinner. We should check on him in his house. Then there is that empty feeling. That pain of remembering. It’s hard. It’s hard to remember. It would be worse to forget. 

• Favorite Christmas memory with Grandpa: https://fablerosemc.blogspot.com/2023/12/christmas-memories-my-favorite-gift-w-grandpa.html
• Grandpa passing: https://fablerosemc.blogspot.com/2023/12/with-father-grandpas-passing.html

What I Read…

• Psalm 53
• Psalm 54
• Psalm 55
• John 9 

Previous days: 

• 21 Days Of Prayer 
• Day one | praying for specifics and to be a light for God
• Day two | praying for my future husband  
• Day three | processing…
• Day four | check ins and journal entries 
• Day five | seeing God in EVERYTHING + the crashing waves of grief
• Day six | feeling SEEN in the Psalms
• Day seven | Feelings muddled under the surface of my skin
• Day eight | rejoice always 
• Day nine | I feel like a little girl. I feel lost. Surrounded by rubble. 
• Day ten | God connects stories
• Day eleven | talking about what’s been happening…Grandpa passing
• Day twelve | Christmas Eve 
• Day thirteen | Christmas Day
• Day fourteen | day after Christmas & dealing with pain

God bless us, every one 

If you think to pray for me and my family I will be forever grateful! If you have a prayer request or need please comment and let me know! 

Goodnight! <3 

Love, 

Moriyah