21 days of prayer | praying in the new year & dealing with loss
Day 6 of 21 Days of Prayer
| 18 December 2023
9:30 am
The rain weeps covering the earth in tears. Healing tears that bring forth new life in trees and plants. A rain that is cold and sad and healing all at the same time. I’m finding more things like that. Contradictory things. Peace and heartbreak in the same moment. Tears that heal. Grief and gratitude. Things you wouldn’t normally put together or would say are the opposite living together in harmony. Both existing and feeling at the same moment.
I love the psalms. Whenever I’m in a hard spot or am hurting or trying to work through things, I go to the psalms. There is something so comforting in the words. There is joy and gratitude, awe of God, songs, prayers, grief, anger, frustration, fear, anxiety, depression, doubts, answers, hope, comfort, love, passion, mourning, memories and so much more. I feel like I’m feeling a mix of most if not all of these things. In psalms I feel s e e n. I feel k n o w n. I don’t feel alone.
I’m thankful for the psalms in times like now.
Some verses that are comforting me this morning:
Precious in the sight of the LORD
is the death of his saints.
—Psalm 116:15
But I trust in you, O LORD;
I say, “You are my God.”
My times are in your hand;
—Psalm 31:15
Blessed be the LORD,
for he has wondrously shown his steadfast love to me
when I was in a besieged city.
—Psalm 31:21
Be strong, and let your heart take courage,
all you who wait for the LORD!
—Psalm 31:24
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You are a hiding place for me;
you preserve me from trouble;
—Psalm 32:7
He loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of the steadfast love of the LORD.
—Psalm 33:5
Our soul waits for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.
For our heart is glad in him,
because we trust in his holy name.
Let your steadfast love, O LORD, be upon us,
even as we hope in you.
—Psalm 33:20-22
I sought the LORD, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears.
—Psalm 34:4
The angel of the LORD encamps
around those who fear him, and delivers them.
—Psalm 34:7
Turn away from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.
—Psalm 34:14
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
but the LORD delivers him out of them all.
He keeps all his bones;
not one of them is broken.
—Psalm 34:18-20
Later…9:37 pm
| 18 December 2023
I think I’m doing better today.
It still hurts. It’s still hard. But today I was able to…rest and find more peace. I had a slow day. I cried. I worked out which helps me process and helps my mentality. I had some cookies that I made the night before (an improved gingerbread cookie recipe). I had coffee. I listened to some of an audiobook I’m loving (All The Light We Cannot See). Looked through photographs. Listened to music. Watched movies with my family. Snuggled my new baby sister. Made dinner for my family. And now I’m writing to you.
Things are getting better. I think. I hope. Please, if you think to pray, it would mean the absolute world to me! My family and I really need prayer right now.
I truly have seen God show up in so many incredible miraculous ways. So many question marks I’ve had about the last four years have been answered. So many things click. So many things make sense now. I’m so thankful to see that. I’m so thankful to be able to see some of God’s plan and what He has been working on. I’m so thankful for the gift of these past few years. Truly I am blessed. Blessed by God. I can see it now. I couldn’t have before but now I do.
A chapter of my life has closed. A book written and finished on to the next one. The Before has passed and the After is now. A life split. And truly, I am looking forward to seeing what God has planned for this new chapter/season/book in my life.
What I read in the Bible…
God bless us, every one
If you think to pray for me and my family I will be forever grateful! If you have a prayer request or need please comment and let me know!
Goodnight <3
Love,
Moriyah
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