21 Days of Prayer | praying in the new year 

Day 3 of 21 Days of Prayer 

| 15 December 2023

I’m processing. 

What do you do when your whole life alters and shatters in a single moment? You now know that your life is split. There is now a clear before and after. Before this day and after this day. Forever and always. A world changed and split. 

I don’t know what I’m going to do. 

I don’t want to keep doing this. I want to stop. I want to hide away somewhere deep in myself. Yet, I wonder…I wonder if this was planned? I felt God put this on my heart to do this challenge and pray. I felt like I had to start it now and fast. Was it because of this? Did He set this on my heart knowing I would be going through maybe the most difficult time of my life? I know I need to pray. I need to be close to God now more than ever before. I need Him to be my rock. I need Him. 

I need this challenge. 

I can’t not feel. 

I need to f e e l. 

I hate feeling. 

I need to process. 

So, I will try to keep doing this challenge. 

I may struggle. 

It may be hard. 

I may cry. 

But that is okay.

I’ll explain it all soon. One day when I’m ready. But for now, this is me. I hope I can do this challenge still and show up everyday but I don’t know if I’m able yet. I don’t really know right now. 

Till then…here is a verse that’s giving me peace and that I’m contemplating now. 

“For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.  If I am to live in the flesh, that means fruitful labor for me. Yet which I shall choose I cannot tell. I am hard pressed between the two. My desire is to depart and be with Christ, for that is far better.” 

—Philippians 1:21–23 

Previous days: 

• 21 Days Of Prayer 
• Day one | praying for specifics and to be a light for God
• Day two | praying for my future husband  

God bless us, every one 

If you think to pray for me and my family I will be forever grateful! If you have a prayer request or need please comment and let me know! 

Goodnight <3 

Love, 

Moriyah