The Chasm | my current struggles + prayer + a special announcement |

 

The Chasm 

| my current struggles + a special announcement |

Hello, sweet friend! 

Today I wanted to share about some of my current struggles and the answers I’m finding out about. 

A quick life update

This week has been…a challenge emotionally. Nothing bad actually happened thanks to God’s blessing and protection, but there was the potential for it and it left my family and I reeling. It was traumatizing and left me emotionally drained and anything could set me off crying. But as I said, everything did turn out for the good. 

I am getting better. I’m starting to feel creative again (I wrote a really sweet short story that I cannot wait to share with you) and am emotionally more stable. I feel more peace and a sense of calm I know only to be from God. I know it was helped a lot by the topic and answers I got that inspired this post. 

A quick word & encouragement over 2023 

Before I go into today's post, I wanted to say just in case someone else out there reads this and has felt like 2023 is going to be a big year but then is being attacked, to lean into God and pray. If you are being attacked already this year by the enemy, know that isn’t accidental. You have the potential for incredible goodness this year. Something for God’s good and yours is happening and the enemy is trying to stop you from it. Lean into God. Pray, seek him, come closer to him. God loves you and is for you. He has a great plan for your life and your family’s lives. Don’t let the enemy scare you off. Press into God, to his word, and his promises. Don’t lose heart dear one. God is for you. 

I believe this year is going to be amazing but it is going to be a struggle to get to that amazing part. Maybe not for everyone, but certainly for my family. 2023 started and on the 2nd we were hit. God saved and protected us but it was still a hit. Now, instead of cowering, we are praying deeper and praising God. We are still a bit shaken but we have not been moved. There is a difference. You can go through hard things and feel it and feel shaken but not moved. We have an anchor in God, with him as our anchor, we will not be moved. We may get frightened but we won’t lose our faith in God. That is important. 

I really do want to encourage you and pray for you, so if you feel like this has spoken to you and if you feel brave enough, please leave a comment to let me know. I would love to know your name so I can pray for you. 

Now back to the post…

My family is pressing into prayer this year more than ever. On Tuesday my parents pulled me aside to pray for me. They felt I was highlighted and told me they wanted to pray for me. They laid out this picture in their mind of what they would be praying for and it lined up exactly to how I was feeling without even telling them. 

For the past month, I have been struggling on what’s next. I’m turning eighteen this year, I’m going to be graduating, so much is happening and I feel big things are on the horizon but then…I feel there is this unknown. 

I know I’ll be graduating soon and working on more writing but then what? In front of me I know where I am going. I have these dreams and missions on my heart and I know what I want to do with my life. The problem is how do I get there? How do I go from here to there? 

I want to write and publish. I want to go on missions. I want to help people heal and grow in Jesus. I want to adopt. I want to have children and be a mother. I want to marry and have a husband, a partner, a best friend to the end. I want to travel and go to Europe. I want to encourage people and be a light for God. There are so many things I want to do and none of it feels impossible as in I can’t get there but impossible in that I have no idea how. 

I described it to my mom as this: 

Its like I’m on the edge of a chasm. I know where I am and I can see the other side of where I am going. But then there is a chasm between me and those dreams. An area of blankness and unknowns that stretches before me and I don’t see a bridge to cross. 

My mom got a look in her eyes, smiled and said, “You don’t know.” 

My mom went on to tell me about the old Christian paintings of salvation. The paintings were of a chasm. You are on one side and heaven is on the other. Laying across the chasm is the cross, Jesus—our salvation and the only way to cross. 

Instantly I started to tear up. It was like, “That’s it. That’s what I’ve been trying to figure out. That’s what I’ve been praying for. There it was as a painting of all things. A painting showing the answer.” 

I love how that happens. How God uses things and people to show you the answer you’ve been searching for. 

The painting that caught my eye was this one below. As soon as I saw it, it reminded me of a drawing or painting you would see of Narnia or Out Of The Silent Planet by C. S. Lewis. It's perfect. 

There are still areas where I am unsure but I have peace. I feel calm and full of hope. My answer is Jesus. It's trusting him and following after his peace. It is believing and trusting him even when I am uncertain. I still don’t know what’s next or where I’m going, but I know it will be with him and I know he will be there for me and that gives me peace. 

Thursday night my mom gave me these two Bible verses and it is perfect for this post!

“Now I stand on solid ground, and I will praise the Lord.”                        

—Psalm 26:12

“You enlarge my steps under me, and my feet have not slipped.”                 

—Psalm 18:36 

One of those next steps I feel is a new project I’ve been working on brainstorming these past two-ish weeks…

Special Surprise Announcement 

I am looking for peace this year. This is something my mom talks about all the time, and is something I’ve experienced a lot with my writing and this blog. I want to look after and seek peace. 

I actually wasn’t going to announce this until later but I think it ties in nicely to everything I’ve been talking about today so…

…I am starting a Bible study called BEHOLD PEACE this spring (*hopefully in* February 2023). 

I love it because this mission, these words I have for 2023 and my whole life really, mean “seek peace”. That is what I want my year and life to look like. My middle name is Shalom which means “peace”. It is a prophetic name I believe and I love seeing it play out in my life, even in creating this Bible study. 

Seeking peace is a mission for this Bible Study. 

I will be posting the official announcement soon, but for now let me tell you a little bit about this Bible Study. This study will be open to everyone. I will be publishing a new blog where the Bible study will be hosted and I am so excited to start it with all of you! 

I really want this to be a blessing to all of you (and for myself). I hope this will be a community of Christian women (though men are welcome (; ) who rise up and strengthen each other as believers and friends. We will be going through the women of the Bible and look for inspiration in them as women and see how God used them and was fully a part of their lives. I really hope you will join me on this new journey. 

I do feel like BEHOLD PEACE is an answered prayer. I am wanting to seek peace, I want to help people, and I think this has the potential to be an incredibly impactful mission and just what I’ve been searching for. I may not be able to be a missionary right now but I can minister through these blogs. These are my first missions and I am so grateful for all God has done through Fable Rose and I know he will do great things through BEHOLD PEACE as well! 

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Discussion Time

I hope you liked this post about the beginning of my 2023, some of my struggles, and this new project I’m working on!! I think 2023 will be a big and amazing year! If the past few days are any indication that is what I think. Thank you so much for reading this post! 

I want to hear from you! Meet me in the comments and tell me how the start of your 2023 is going? Is there anything I can pray for you? I would love to chat! 

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Happy 2023 friends!  

XOXO Moriyah 🤎