21 days of prayer | praying in the new year & traveling through loss

Day 11 of 21 Days of prayer 

| 23 December 2023

2 days until Christmas. 

Christmas Eve Eve is upon us friends. I can’t believe it’s already here. Time has been a blur. A whirling twirling whirl of thoughts, feelings and emotions. 

I think it’s time to talk about what’s been happening in my life recently. Ever since December 15th, my life has changed and altered. Each day I’ve been coming here and talking about my prayers, what’s been happening (without saying exactly what’s been happening) and trying to deal with this loss and grief. 

So today, I think it’s time to actually say and talk about what’s happened. It’s time. 

So…on December 15th I heard the news. 

My Grandpa, my only one, my greatest supporter, who always encouraged me, loved me unconditionally, was there for me all 18 years of my life since day one, who poured into me, was my favorite favorite person in the whole world beside my parents siblings & God, passed away on December 14th. It was a shock. None of us were expecting that to happen. Exactly two weeks before his death, his own dad (my great grandfather) died. It’s so hard without him. At the same time the world doesn’t seem to make sense without him but then…I see so many answers popping up all over the place. I know God placed us in the exact right place these past 4 years to be with Grandpa. God gave us a gift these four years. We have gotten even closer to my Grandpa. God has blessed us and given us so much. I’m so thankful even though my heart is broken and aches. It’s also full of memories and thankfulness. 

This Christmas will be very different. It won’t be the same without Grandpa. There is an emptiness and coldness in the air and at the same time I feel so much peace and love from God. God keeps showing up. I’m so so thankful for Him. 

I’ll have a bit bigger post later today including the vision/picture I saw that day that I’ve mentioned here before. I’ll see you soon <3 

What I read in the Bible…

• Psalm 46
• Psalm 47
• Psalm 48
• John 6

“Then you shall call, and the LORD will answer;

you shall cry, and he will say, ‘Here I am.’” 

—Isaiah 58:9

“And the LORD will guide you continually

and satisfy your desire in scorched places

and make your bones strong;

and you shall be like a watered garden,

like a spring of water,

whose waters do not fail.”

—Isaiah 58:11

“…that you may tell the next generation

 that this is God,

our God forever and ever.

He will guide us forever.”

- Psalm 48:13-24

Posts…

My post about Grandpa: https://fablerosemc.blogspot.com/2023/12/with-father-grandpas-passing.html 

My mom’s post about Grandpa: https://www.abigailaviva.com/2023/12/remembering-grandpa.html

Previous days: 

• 21 Days Of Prayer 
• Day one | praying for specifics and to be a light for God
• Day two | praying for my future husband  
• Day three | processing…
• Day four | check ins and journal entries 
• Day five | seeing God in EVERYTHING + the crashing waves of grief
• Day six | feeling SEEN in the Psalms
• Day seven | Feelings muddled under the surface of my skin
• Day eight | rejoice always 
• Day nine | I feel like a little girl. I feel lost. Surrounded by rubble. 
• Day ten | God connects stories

God bless us, every one 

If you think to pray for me and my family I will be forever grateful! If you have a prayer request or need please comment and let me know! 

Good evening <3 

Love, 

Moriyah