Day 18 of 21 days of prayer | musings on death

 21 days of prayer | praying in the new year & traveling through loss 

Day 18 of 21 Days of Prayer

| 30 December 2023 

Today I feel…grateful and worried. 

It’s silly to be worried now isn’t it? I know I am safe in God. I know He is with me. I know I have nothing to fear. Yet…worry still creeps in. Try as I want to keep it away…worry has a way of sneaking up on you. 

The thing that brought on this worry was a conversation I had yesterday with my parents. An old saying. “Death comes in threes”. 

It’s an old saying. There is no logical truth in it. A thing people say. Not truth. But…it is a worry some thought. Four weeks ago my great grandfather died. Two weeks ago my grandpa died. Two deaths within two weeks of each other. Now, I’m not a superstitious person. I don’t put any weight to those sorts of things. Yet…two deaths in two weeks. If the saying could be true then…will there be another death? If so, when…and who? Quite a morbid thought I know. I hope, I pray there is nothing to this saying. But it could happen. Deaths do seem to come in groups. Not always. Not usually. Just sometimes. Are we in a sometime? 

I’m running away with my thoughts. Worrying about silly things. Stuff of nonsense. 

Death is natural. Death is the door to how we get to live with God. We live on this earth to die and go to the next world—to heaven…or hell. Death is the door into which we enter eternity. We believe in God, in Jesus as our lord and savior—then our hope is to be with God in His presence (our Heaven). Or the other way. The wide path. The inviting way. The way of eternal death and suffering. 

Death is natural.

Yet, we all run from it. 

We all hate it.

No one likes death.

We try to avoid it at all costs.

All of us will die one day. That is natural. Yes, morbid too—I apologize for being in such a mood today but that is my thoughts and prayers today. Prayers the old saying isn’t true. That death doesn’t have to be in threes. But also…for strength. God is how I have strength. My strength is in God. Even if more deaths are to come (as they will undoubtedly and unavoidably occur), I pray that my family and I would have the strength to carry on, trust fully in God, and carry out in God’s plans. 

12Teach us to realize the brevity of life, so that we may grow in wisdom.” —Psalm 90:12

Death is natural. One of the most unnatural natural things. 

We must trust God with it all. Our days are numbered. He knows the number of our days. 

4“Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be.

Remind me that my days are numbered—

how fleeting my life is.

5You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand.

My entire lifetime is just a moment to you;

at best, each of us is but a breath.” 

—Psalm 38:4-5

He has a plan. I will trust. I am praying to trust. Father, help me to trust you. 

5Trust in the Lord with all your heart;

do not depend on your own understanding.

6Seek his will in all you do,

and he will show you which path to take. 

—Proverbs 3:5-6

On a fun note…

Today, I have decided to continue on with this prayer challenge going into January! I’ll post more details soon but I’ve loved getting to come here each day and process and pray and chat with you all. Thank you to everyone who reads these posts! I’ll chat with you soon! 

Also, today we watched Harriet the 2019 movie. It was SO GOOD! I love the story of Harriet and her strong faith, trust, and belief in God! She truly has such an inspiring story! I loved all the music in the movie! It was so good and I totally recommend watching! 

What I read today…

• Psalm 60
• Psalm 61
• Psalm 62
• John 12 
• Portions from Revelation 

Previous days: 

• 21 Days Of Prayer 
• Day one | praying for specifics and to be a light for God
• Day two | praying for my future husband  
• Day three | processing…
• Day four | check ins and journal entries 
• Day five | seeing God in EVERYTHING + the crashing waves of grief
• Day six | feeling SEEN in the Psalms
• Day seven | Feelings muddled under the surface of my skin
• Day eight | rejoice always 
• Day nine | I feel like a little girl. I feel lost. Surrounded by rubble. 
• Day ten | God connects stories
• Day eleven | talking about what’s been happening…Grandpa passing
• Day twelve | Christmas Eve 
• Day thirteen | Christmas Day
• Day fourteen | day after Christmas & dealing with pain
• Day fifteen | in my darkest days — memories with grandpa
• Day sixteen | 2 weeks without grandpa 
• Day seventeen | praying for truth

God bless us, every one 

If you think to pray for me and my family I will be forever grateful! If you have a prayer request or need please comment and let me know! 

Goodnight! <3 

Love, 

Moriyah